In my experience if you have a toxic boss you clash with, and HR is unwilling to deal with the problem then they are complicit, which is a far too frequent scenario, if at all possible it sounds like a new job would be the best option for your mental health while you talk to a therapist about the situation to find coping tools in the meantime

I imagine my mother was chucking any that looked off or more likely cutting off the parts that were bad and using the rest.

Main one is cucumbers, after my generous neighbors in my childhood gave us 2 large paper grocery bags of cucumbers and my mother used them in everything for the next month I was done for life, can’t stand them raw, but I will eat pickles all day.

The other would be raw tomatoes, the seed slime is not good for my autistic mouth