I understand what you mean. That’s sort of what I was expressing my frustration about earlier is that I think society makes it that way. You aren’t being negative or complaining, these things are completely normal but we don’t treat them as normal. We don’t really have examples of how to initiate these conversations in healthy ways. Even the word suicide itself feels so heavy.

The heavier society makes that feel, the more you think you’re putting a burden on someone that you aren’t.

Did you know suicide is the 10th leading cause of death in the US?

Usually the only time suicide is brought up its for drama on some show.

Instead of burdening others, I don’t say anything. I feel like I’m silently drifting towards suicide. Even if I say the most offending problems out loud nothing will change because all the problems stem from human nature itself.

Do you mind if I ask what it is you’re expecting to change?

Talking to someone isn’t necessarily about solving all your root problems but to just help yourself get out of your own head about it.

It’s like an alcoholic going to their first AA meeting or someone with PTSD going to their first therapist session. That one conversation isn’t going to change everything, but it might give you support and help you realize that other people are struggling with the same things and even some people have found successful ways of digging out.

There was a streamer I used to watch that ended up killing himself. Before he did it he was talking about whether life is a simulation and that killing himself might get him to the next “level”

What about that connects with you?

You’ve mentioned before you push these feelings down and wear a sort of mask in front of others instead of burdening them. Is it possible that by choosing to cut yourself off from others, you’re preventing yourself from having real connections and so they end up feeling artificial and simulated?

Donating all their assets to the needy is actually supposed to be an alignment of goals, and that’s why progressives find the church so frustrating.

I’m really sorry you had that experience, but from my own I don’t find that’s always true. I don’t struggle with suicide per se but I do get intrusive thoughts telling me too and these really scared me when they first started happening because I didn’t understand the weren’t from me.

I’ve talked about this with at least 4 or 5 of my close friends and they all understood and many even related and have their own struggles.

I’ve had friends who self harmed, friends who have threatened to harm themselves, everytime we had a heart to heart about something like that it’s only brought us closer.

Why do you think they pretty much all end up overdosing, unaliving themselves

I think a huge part of the reason suicidal people feel so alone is because society absolutely refuses to talk about it.

If you choose to self censor to make your content more friendly to advertisers while robbing vulnerable suicidal people of the language they need to be taken seriously, of course people are going to end up “unaliving” themselves because of it.

Imagine trying to explain you’re suicidal to a friend who isn’t even capable of hearing the word “suicide”.

Abuse isn’t the solution to miseducation.