Jessica

My only 2 serious dating relationships were with Asian women. I don’t really have my own social circle, so theirs became mine.

My best friend is from Vietnam/Cambodia, my other friends are her family and social circle.

To people looking at me from the outside, it looks like I have a preference or even fetish for Asian people. But for me that’s simply not true. My friends happen to be Asian, my past dating life happened to be with Asian women. But that doesn’t define me. Though, due to the stereotype of the White man with “yellow fever”, it would seem that it were so. I don’t give a fuck what people think, so it does not affect me.

I don’t date women anymore, and have only had encounters with Black and White men. It’s just how things have gone, which is fine with me; I go with the flow.

To have a preference for a certain race or ethnicity is not problematic. To have a dating profile that says “X’s only”, is a red flag at best. I’d avoid anyone who says “White Trans Only”. Even though that is who I am, I wouldn’t want to be with someone who sees me as less than a person and more of an object for their desires. Life is too short to limit oneself to only a certain type of person, whether it be race, ethnicity, or other immutable trait. I’d like to think that my future mate will like me for my personality and lived experiences. If they happen to also like me because of what I look like, that’s fine too.

Why so hostile? Being a “complete sexual degenerate” has nothing to do with being gay. It seems that you have internalized homophobia. Seeking help to understand why you feel that way is a good first step.

Chances are 100% that an abusive watch of porn, hentai, and early masturbation, as well as traumas of neglect and bullying, distorted me.

Hold up. Watching porn as a child does not somehow make people gay. You really should see a therapist who can help you navigate your sexuality.